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And David said unto Nathan, I have sinned against the LORD. And Nathan said unto David, The LORD also hath put away thy sin; thou shalt not die. 2 Samuel 12:13

David sinned against God in a pretty major way, yet God still loved him, and had a huge purpose for his life, and loved him regardless.

Just because David sinned did not mean he didn’t have a good heart. He was referred to as a man after God’s own heart.

But now thy kingdom shall not continue: the Lord hath sought him a man after his own heart, and the Lord hath commanded him to be captain over his people, because thou hast not kept that which the Lord commanded thee. 1 Samuel 13:14

God saw past the sin and loved us anyway. (Romans 5:8) He demonstrated this when He appointed Jesus to die on the cross. He saw what we could become without sin. But we needed Jesus’ help. Sometimes our hearts can become hardened , and easily stirred by evil if we don’t consistently guard it.

Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life. Proverbs 4:23

Instead of doing away with David which the law would have done, God showed him who he was in the mirror, by sending Nathan the prophet to make him face his sin. David was convicted and realized that he needed to repent. God quickly demonstrated his Grace toward David. (2 Samuel 12:13)

David knew what he did was wrong, but he let his flesh consume him. Then he tried to cover up the sin over and over , but not matter how much he ignored it, it was always there, causing him guilt and shame, and if not taken care of could have destroyed him.

Yes, what joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt,whose lives are lived in complete honesty!When I refused to confess my sin,my body wasted away,and I groaned all day long.  Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me. My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat. Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone. Psalm 32:2-5

 

God did not David live in guilt and shame, because he knew the heart of David was a good heart, a true repentant heart; A man after his own heart, and that he was capable of of doing great things for the Kingdom of God. WE should never judge people by their sins, we do not know what they are facing. We can edify and help one another, but if we immediately crucify them for wrong doing, instead of showing grace, that can do some pretty irreparable damage. If we lift one another up and help each other, pray for one another, you never know what beauty can rise up, what victories can be won.

 “and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the Lord
    for the display of his splendor.” Isaiah 61:3

David is my favorite character of the bible, he sinned, repented and praised over and over. The most human in my opinion of all characters. It’s a reminder that althought we fail God, and we will, we must continually get up time and time again. God will not wash his hands of us, he understands. It’s not to say go and do bad things, it’s permissable as long as you repent, it says if your heart is right you will quickly realize what you are doing is wrong, and walk away from that sin and hopefully not have to repeat it again.

Over the course of my christian walk, I went through phases. In the beginning everything was new, and i was “in love” everything was easy in a sense, but after that I went through periods of testing, and still do to this day. I passed some and failed some. For a while I came to a point where I was going through the motions and forgetting my first love, and the whole reason I was doing the ministries I was put into – singing, teaching Sunday school etc. It became like a job or something I “had” to do. I started to view the bible as a set of rules that I just couldn’t handle, I was too weak and had failed God too many times. And I think that is what God needed to show me. I needed to learn to lean on Him more, and not rely on my own strength. To realize my need for Him every day to stay victorious, to remember my first love again.

But I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Revelation 2:4

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6

I nearly lost out on God. I stepped down from everything and did my own thing until I got my heart right, but it was only when I fell on my knees before God and admitted I could not be right without Him, that things changed. I felt like there was no way back at times much like the prodigal son. But God was right there waiting to restore me.

We can compare ourselves to almost any character in the bible, because we are not much different. they are there to show us that they weren’t perfect human beings, but God still used them to do great things.

Bitterness can set in if you ignore your sin…. you will hear the word of God and begin to ignore it because you cannot face the guilt and shame. Healing is a process, especially when you feel you have failed God. But we need to have courage to humble ourselves,look ourselves in the mirror, face up to the sin, admit our weakness, and ask God to help us move on. Maybe it’s pride, or jealousy you are dealing with, or some form of addiction. Sin can take many forms, but God doesn’t change, and He certainly never changes his mind about us.

If we never fail, we never realize our true selves, we are just living behind masks. God expects that we will fail, but he also expects that we will get back up.

I often ask God why choose me for these tasks? I am not a good speaker, I don’t understand the whole bible, and I certainly am not the best singer out there. But it’s through these weaknesses that God becomes strong, and when He puts his anointing on us, we can say, this was surely God in our midst and His doing. I have heard songs sung by awful singers, but the message was so beautiful you couldn’t help but worship because the anointing was on that song and the person. You don’t notice the notes they missed, you see the message and the spirit of God. You can tell a persons heart when they are doing something for God, and when they are doing something for the praise of men.

So now when I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t say “failure, or how could you be so stupid” Or you messed up, it wasn’t perfect, you could have said that better, or done a better job of this. Now I say, God loves me like His own, He has promised to never leave me or forsake me, I am a child of the king. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. Philippians 4:13 

How many parents would disown their children for the mistakes they made growing up? It’s inevitable, and with discipline, can help us grow to be persons of integrity. Then when someone dealing with he same issue comes our way, we can say yes I have been through this, let me show you how I overcame it. We are our own worst enemies, we beat ourselves up unnecessarily.

I got up to sing a song that I felt God had put on my heart last Sunday. I really haven’t dedicated myself to special singing for a long time because In some sense I never forgave myself for a sin I committed in the past, and I felt that I didn’t deserve to be up there, or that the anointing of God maybe had left me. Even though God forgave me of that sin, I consistently hold things against myself, and the enemy loves nothing more than to remind you of that very thing.

God’s image of us doesn’t change, who do you think God sees when he looks at you? It is probably the complete opposite of what you think.  God forgave David, but It was up to him to forgive himself and then learn to live without the sin that had dominated him, and step back into his true calling. I was probably viewed as a person who could do no wrong for a long time by outsiders, and perhaps I like Peter thought I would never fail God because I loved Him so much. But like Peter, I certainly did many times. (John 18:15-27)

I had done everything perfect, walked the walk and talked the talk, but inside no one really saw the demons I faced including myself. You can only keep them hidden for so long before they come out and test you. We were not mean to live by law out of fear we are meant to rely on Jesus Grace. We need to realize that we are not able to pursue righteousness without God. We are all able to sin, and all have fallen short of God’s glory.

For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; Romans 3:23

The enemy hates it when we make beauty out of ashes. But that is what God does, it’s his perfect recipe for success. He loved us while we were yet sinners. If you are dealing with sin in your life, don’t stay there. Even if you aren’t sure if you are right with God, ask God to search out your heart and remove whatever is keeping you bound, so you can live freely and joyfully in Him. Be Blessed.

Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: Psalm 139:23

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